Vestibular overload happens more frequently than you might think. And it happens WAY more frequently than what is comfortable for me. I mean, I'm comfortable with it happening, NEVER. When it happens, it is pretty terrifying & it causes sheer panic, to be completely honest. As I've grown up, I've become skilled at knowing what my triggers are & either avoiding them completely or coming up with coping mechanisms that cause my symptoms to be milder & more in my control. However, because I can't control every situation, it's just not possible for everything in my life to be under my control all the time. Sometimes, vestibular overload happens out of the blue & other times, it happens due to a particular situation. I talk more in-depth about what the vestibular sense & the two other hidden senses are in my previous blog post about vestibular processing & the SEVEN other senses. When Vestibular Overload Happens Out Of The Blue: When this happens, it's pretty terrifying because there are absolutely no warning signals & I am not at all able to sense that it's coming. While I did outgrow my dizzy spells when I was seventeen, I do sometimes still struggle with dizziness-related issues. For example, just this past fall, I was taking my dogs for a walk around my neighborhood loop (the street I live on is the shape of a horseshoe, so if you just walk straight, you end up where you started). Then, I felt a wave of dizziness start to come over me. I was beginning to panic because I was alone with my two tiny, six pound dogs who I had to keep safe. I also have this intense fear of being alone while I'm dizzy if I'm outside of my home. I'm sure that the only reason I have this fear is due to the dizziness trauma I endured when I was growing up. Thankfully, this kind of dizziness is not at all debilitating, like it used to be, though. I opened the locator app on my phone to see if my dad had gotten home from work yet & luckily, he had. So, I called him to see if he could walk the opposite direction & meet me & my pups. The second I could see my dad walking towards me, I felt a wave of relief because I was no longer alone. Knowing that I would have assistance, support, & someone to take care of my precious pups if something were to happen to me was very relieving. Luckily, nothing did happen that I needed his help with. But, him being nearby helped immensely. If this situation had happened when I was at home, I probably wouldn't have even told anyone & just sat on the couch until it was over. Being this afraid of dizziness can be very overwhelming. Experiencing Expected Vestibular Overload:
This is actually what gave me the idea for this blog post. I currently walk small dogs & pet sit for a living. However, I am hoping that Splashed With Water will soon become my main source of income with pet care becoming more of a side gig, once this blog & online boutique gain more exposure & traction. I have a client who lives along a very busy & high-speed road with no sidewalks. However, they live just a few houses away from a very quiet street with almost no traffic. My job is to get their dog from the house & take her to that little, quiet street for her walk. I can do it safely by walking in people's lawns rather than in the shoulder of the road. The houses on this street are very far away from the road, so I'm sure no one notices that I'm walking in their front yards. However, this is where the problem comes into play. This dog likes to have zoomies along this very busy & high-speed road on our way home from our walks. Zoomies are a good thing for dogs, but are not a good thing for me & are not a good thing for this particular situation. What Are Zoomies?: If you have a dog or are familiar with dogs, you likely know what zoomies are, but if you don't, here's your answer. Zoomies are explosions of energy that dogs have, which cause frantic running around in circles &/or spinning around. They are frequently caused by an excess buildup of energy that dogs hold on to, which is then released in one big burst. Different dogs have different triggers for zoomies. Some have zoomies during certain times of day, after a bath, or after stressful situations, like visiting the vet. Clearly one of this dog's triggers for zoomies is going for walks with ME! This dog having zoomies is stressful for me because she's having zoomies while she's on (I'm estimating) an eight foot leash that I'm holding onto. I cannot spin in circles. Period. Plus, I'm responsible for this dog's safety while she's with me. Like I previously stated, she likes to have zoomies when we're walking along a very busy, high-speed road. Luckily, we're walking on people's lawns rather than in the shoulder of the road, which makes this activity slightly less dangerous than it could be. Whenever this dog has zoomies, it causes some panic inside of me because it makes me feel unsafe myself. I tend to find myself taking deep breaths to try to calm myself down, hoping she'll get it out of her system quickly, so that I can get her home & be on my way. 🤞🏼 I mean, as much as I want to, I can't say to my clients' dog, "Hey, I'm autistic & struggle with vestibular overload. So, can you please not have zoomies outside, along a very busy, high-speed road, while I'm trying to keep you under control & safe via leash? Because no matter how much I want to chase you, I can't run around in circles." & expect she'll understand. 🤪 This situation just happened earlier today. Multiple times. I love this dog, but I just wish zoomies could be reserved for inside the house!
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